Alone.

28 March 2015

That is what I am. 

I feel as though I have lost everything. 
I have. 
I have lost myself. 
I have lost my drive. 
I have lost my light. 
I have lost my best friend.

I can chose to sit here and feel sorry for myself. I am allowing myself 5 minutes to do so. Then I must keep going. There is no louder scream to take the steps into the right direction then the screaming of my own quiet soul. 

My SO has drawn the line that we are no more. We are co-parents under one roof but that is all. I have never felt more alone in my entire life but I honestly think this is exactly where I'm supposed to be. Faced with the reality that I created. Dependent on no one but myself. 

Where am I going?

All I know is

Forward.