I am in control of EVERYTHING

28 March 2015

I started reading my first book last night and actually I think it will be very good for me to get through this book. I am keeping notes in another journal to then put here. 

The book is called You Can Heal Your Life and just after the first chapter I can hear my second therapist speaking all of these words. This is probably a sign that what I am being taught in the book is in fact the highest of importance in order to fix myself. It was the first book that I opened and the universe is speaking to me. 

We control every experience in our life by our thoughts. We are the only thinkers in our minds.

How true is this. How did I get here? I doubted myself. I didn't believe in myself. I didn't prioritize myself therefore being unable to prioritize anyone else and the universe listened and supported those decisions.

What we think about ourselves becomes the truth for us.

What ideas of mine are limiting me? 
-I am not good enough.
-I am unable to change.

Our early life stays with us forever. We tend to treat ourselves as our parents treated us.

Not to fault our parents for anything. They were doing the best that they could with the tools that they knew. But it is up to us now to teach ourselves the tools we want.

NOTHING BUT THE PRESENT MOMENT CREATES THE FUTURE

The past is done. It should not be forgotten but it should not determine your choices in the current moment. By thinking "I'm not good enough", I am fueling my unsatisfied self and a joyous life will never prosper from this fuel.

Major problems most commonly to humans (which I am guilty of ALL) Resentment, Criticism, Guilt, and Fear.

Where has criticism gotten me thus far in my life? Absolutely no where. Great idea: How about I chose to approve of myself!


Today is a new day. My mind and heart are absolutely racing. But this is a good test. Normally I would let my emotions just run wild, I would give in to my fears and find myself in a huge puddle of self-pity. Today, I know the things that I am in control of and I know what I can and cannot do. I can ensure that my thoughts remain focused on this task. I am focusing today on self-love even when I feel like I have been a complete failure. There is no one who will love me as I can love myself. The universe will support whatever route I decide to take so I need to trust myself that I will figure out the right path. 

Goals:
-I AM good enough.